No, we're not good. We're not good at all. We have no idea what we're doing or where we're going. Some of us are aware of that and are scared out of our minds. Others don't even notice. They just follow along, doing what they thing they're supposed to be doing. Following the people they think have it down. Truth is, no one has it down. We're all scared and confused and lost.
Me? I've got nothing down. I don't know anything for certain. And I may look like I have everything together, look like I'm strong but really, I'm weak. I'm buried under the load of an emotional mother, the load of a distant father, the load of being a good sister, a good friend, a good student, being connected to my faith, listening to God, obeying and following God, the load of diseased friendships, the load of schoolwork and school responsibilities, the incredible load of money and the worries that tag along with it, the load of insecurity, low self-esteem, the load of my future, my past, and my present. I'm weighed down by all of this. So yeah, I'm a good actress, but don't look to me for answers. None of us know what to do, but we're all in that together.
But all that's too much to say. So, "yeah, we're good."
oh the unspoken understanding carried in that phrase. I suppose its really a reassurance to one another that even with all the problems eating away at our edges, Im good, says i can still carry on. I think its interesting that in this world, we already acknowledge having problems, issues, struggles is an implied factor in living. So far we have fallen away. Its like looking into a fellow soldiers eyes and asking, are you good to continue? The war is implied and everything that goes with it. Are you still "good" brynn? (pep talk initiated)Just remember you may bend but love and wisdom will never let you break. Take it all and use it to help others.
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