Effervescence: Abandonment Complex

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Abandonment Complex

I'm waiting
just waiting
Waiting for you to realize
that you don't want me

I'm waiting
simply waiting
I'm waiting for you to wake up
one day and say
that you don't need me

I'm waiting
and I'm terrified
I'm waiting for you to see
that you don't care about me

I'm waiting
and holding my breath
waiting for you to know
that I'm not worth it

I'm waiting
and I'm terrified
and I'm holding my breath
because I know that you
may not need me, care
about me, want me, may not
think that I'm worth it
So I'm waiting for you
to tell me

I'm waiting
I'm petrified
I can't breathe
I'm waiting
and hoping that I just
keep
waiting

2 comments:

MichaelJuly 27, 2010 at 3:08 PM
the title is perfect. By the by, i luv the new setup. you put me to shame.

i think its very cool that i still get to read these you write. i hope it lasts.
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Brynn MartinJuly 29, 2010 at 9:05 PM
Well thanks! I just used the step-by-step "customize" whatsit, but I do have to take credit for my amazing taste. :)

Is that subliminal messaging? I'll keep updating this - it's the only way I can get my stuff out anymore. My own virtual 5th block, if you will.
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What I'm Listening To

Awake My Soul, Little Lion Man, After the Storm, Winter Winds, The Cave, Sigh No More by Mumford & Sons.

Around You, Be OK, A Bird's Song, Far Away, Charlie, Die Alone, Maybe by Ingrid Michaelson

I'd Rather Be With You, No Envy No Fear, Streetlight, You Got What I Need, I Think I'll Go Inside, Wanted by Joshua Radin

2 Atoms in a Molecule by Noah and the Whale

Hot Mess by Cobra Starship

You and I, Lucky, Sleeping to Dream, Bright Eyes by Jason Mraz

Soil, Soil by Tegan and Sara

Drops of Jupiter, Hey Soul Sister by Train

Starlight, Bliss by Muse

The Call, Laughing With, Better, Fidelity by Regina Spektor

A Good Day, I Don't Think So by Priscilla Ahn

Something Beautiful, Lay 'Em Down by Needtobreathe

New Shoes by Paolo Nutini

Let Go, Brighter, Ignorance by Paramore

Hymm A L'amour, Mai, When You Say You Love Me, Weeping, Remember, Awake, Hidden Away by Josh Groban

Haven't Met You Yet, Sway, Moondance, Everything, Hold On by Michael Buble

Something Right, Be My Escape by Relient K

Hope Now, All That Matters by Addison Road

Marvelous Light by Charlie Hall

Here (In Your Arms), Oh It Is Love by Hellogoodbye

Falling Is Like This by Ani DeFranco

The Space Between by Dave Matthews Band

Easy Tonight, It's Not Easy To Be Me by Five For Fighting

Absolute, Happiness, Never Say Never, How To Save A Life, Heartless by The Fray

Sirens, Secret Crowds, Distraction, Lifeline, The Gift Everything's Magic, The Flight of Apollo, The Moon-Atomic, Hallucinations by Angels and Airwaves

Glory Defined by Building 429

Hope to Carry On by Caedmon's Call

Love Them Like Jesus by Casting Crowns

Hello by David Cook

The Sound of Settling, No Sunlight by Death Cab for Cutie

Fallen From the Sky by Glen Hansard

Let Love In, Acoustic #3 by Goo Goo Dolls

Better Together, Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson

I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You), Heart of Life, Say, Assassin by John Mayer

Amazing by Josh Kelley

Car Crash, All We Are by Matt Nathanson

Where I Stood by Missy Higgins

Hello Seattle, Vanilla Twilight, Hot Air Balloon, The Saltwater Room by Owl City

Yellow Sun, Level by The Raconteurs

Pen and Paper, Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Breaking, The Unwinding Cable Car, Haight St., Blame Me! Blame Me!, Paperthin Hymn by Anberlin

Favorite Lyrics

"Love, it will not betray you, dismay or enslave you, / it will set you free."

"So let the wind blow us / to wherever it says / we are supposed to go."

"I felt this way before, walking out your front door. / I'm a sea without a shore, and it's raining. / It's really raining. / I think I'll go inside."

"Watch our words spread hope like fire."

"You know there will be days when you're so tired you can't take another step/The night will have no stars and you'll think you've gone as far as you will ever get/But you and me walk on/ Cause you can't go back now"

"Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself/and hidden in the public eye/Such a stellar monument to loneliness/Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes /and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by."

"And so long to no disasters / And mornings too / And so long to ever afters / so long to you."

"I'm falling apart/i'm barely breathing/just a Broken heart/That’s still beating/In the pain/There is healing/In your name/I find meaning."

"Am I a part of the cure/Or am I part of the disease."

"I'll stop the storm if it rains /I'll light a path far from here/
I'll make your fear melt away/And the world we know disappear."

"I can't really say why everyone wishes they were somewhere else/ But in the end the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself."

"Oh love, such a silly game we play/Like a summer's day in may/What is love, what is love/I just wanted to be loved"

"Our lives are made/In these small hours/These little wonders/These twists & turns of fate/Time falls away/But these small hours/These small hours still remain."

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Abandonment Complex

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