Abandonment Complex

I'm waiting
just waiting
Waiting for you to realize
that you don't want me

I'm waiting
simply waiting
I'm waiting for you to wake up
one day and say
that you don't need me

I'm waiting
and I'm terrified
I'm waiting for you to see
that you don't care about me

I'm waiting
and holding my breath
waiting for you to know
that I'm not worth it

I'm waiting
and I'm terrified
and I'm holding my breath
because I know that you
may not need me, care
about me, want me, may not
think that I'm worth it
So I'm waiting for you
to tell me

I'm waiting
I'm petrified
I can't breathe
I'm waiting
and hoping that I just
keep
waiting

Always on My Mind

here we go
back to you again
though I try to stop them
these words flow from my pen

You are always on my mind

when I'm not paying attention
I'll look back and I'll find
that my conscious has
been undermined by
thoughts of you
memories and moments
that remind me why
You are always on my mind

but then I'll think
"no. I've been down that road."
I don't want to go there again
it's too much of a load
to carry
these emotions that overflowed
into more
but still
You are always on my mind

and that's when I start to hate you
I can't even think straight
you put me into this state but
you can't even relate to the
inner-turmoil and my heart's weight
Even then
You are always on my mind

and then it's you that I see
and I can't wait to be near to you
to get that smile that's just for me
that could make me swim across the sea
if ever you asked that of me
oh please
hear my plea because
You are always on my mind

But let's not get carried away here
let me make this very clear
though every word I've said has been sincere
all those tears I shed been for you
my dear
just give it another year
and it may appear that
You aren't always on my mind